Seek First the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness

The last sunset.

8 am- My last morning here. I'm feeing naustalgic, and finding myself reflecting on my time here. The kids are in bed asleep still and I'm able to just think. Not every woman I came in contact here was easy to love, this tested my faith and belief that every woman has something to teach me about God. I had to pray for understanding and wisdom, patience and kindness in some cases. The majority of women offered kindness to me in large quantities, but what about the young ones hardened by life, or the men on the street who let their eyes wander my body while I walked by. What about the one who attacked kevin to steal his phone??? Is he too loved by God? I found that prayer became an even greater necessity during my time here, and that when I asked for love for a woman who didn't smell or look desirable that I was able to see past those things to the person God had created her to be. So many times I have been humbled during this journey realizing that there is so much to learn about humanity as a whole. I wish I could have blended in better, not been so white while I was here. I didn't want to look like the "Rich spoiled priveleged American" I just wanted to blend in and serve where I could. I hope I have accomplished at least part of that while here. Last night I watched the sun set over the Caribbean Sea for the last time, and I wondered if I can do as much good at home as I can here. The women here don't have choices, they can't interview 5 midwives and decide who they "like" the best. (I'm not mocking the choices we have in the states, but if only we realized how fortunate we are to have the choices we do, perhaps we would demand less and appreciate more.) The ladies here just pray that when the time comes and they are alone in the cold sterile delivery room that the Midwife they get will treat them with some kindness. That often doesn't happen. I wonder, can I find a way to make a difference in my world as a Midwife? As I leave this place and the remarkable people who have taught me much about life and my beliefs in the goodness of humanity I can only hope so. Seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you.