Another mountain....climbing time!

Almost a year ago I was preparing for my time in St. Lucia. I worried, wondered, and took the leap of faith. Now here I am 10 months later, but feeling very much the same way. Test day....10 days from now. Its a culmination of all I have learned and done. I feel confident, and yet..... I took the road less traveled, applied apprenticeship versus the more modern training of attending a formal school. I didn't sit through A & P in a classroom, I explored with my hands, listened with my ears, and watched. Now is the test, was it enough. The doors of this process have opened, and I have stepped through each feeling sure and ready. Now the test will tell. I will spend the next 9 days doing what I have been doing for the last 4 years, studying, but this is just refresher time. I'm excited, nervous, scared, sometimes near panic but I know who I am when I work with a client in clinic or help a woman bring her baby into the world so I think I must know something right? Am i nervous? Well I wasn't until people started asking me if I was and then I thought "oh God, I need to be nervous" so now I am officially SCARED OUT OF MY MIND ok, maybe I'm being a tiny bit dramatic, maybe we will just go back to nervous or the cousin of nervous.... cautiously optomistic. Now I'm rambling when I should be studying.... but i just had to get it out so that I could keyboard vomit and then let it go. Did it work, you ask....I'll have to get back to you on that.